Today is commencement. It marks the end of a phase in life and the beginning of another. My university life can be summed up into one word - rollercoaster. Plenty of ups and downs, sweat and tears, smiles and laughters, anger and angst, hopes and dreams, gossips and heart-to-heart talks. My university life was just the psychology department, hall and my exchange in Edinburgh. Okay and maybe the arts canteen. Teehee.

I remembered i came into school, feeling very motivated to study because i've been idle for 6months after A levels. With easier first year modules, I was on the dean's list. Then hall life kicks into my system and with lesser time and same amount of play (i.e., zouk), I fell. I never climbed up that high anymore from there but i maintained my grace, i suppose (?).

Off i went to Edinburgh for a memorable experience. Until now, especially after a recent month long holiday back to Europe and Russia, i feel very fortunate. Many people at my age or even older, have not even been to London, much less say Europe or even Russia. On the other hand, I've celebrated my 21st in Edinburgh and spent my last days as a university student in faraway lands like Russia. I am lucky because i was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth but am still granted these travel bug bitten wishes while i'm young and energetic to backpack.

Hall was major fun in my first 2 years. Got to know massively nice people (and some not so nice people) and made many good friends. Trained together, kick our neighbouring hall's asses in games, partied like a rockstar, drank like fishes, mambo like queens, cry on each other's shoulders and mugged our heads off. Subsequently, staying in hall became a habit, routine. I stayed on for my last 2 years purely because I was too used to waking up just in time for classes which were held in lecture theatres just across the carpark.

At the start of everything new, we assess our final destination and look forward to our goals in bittersweet anticipation. When we finally achieve what we set out to do, more often than not, we would reminisce and relish the long but fulfilling journey in which we embarked on to reach where we are now. Right now, I am feeling it. I'm stuck at an age where i'm too old to fool around but too young to get too serious. There's a Peter Pan in all of us and right now, he's calling out to me.