F1

Many of you know that my weekend was particularly exciting, through photographs in the newspapers & TV & websites. :)) Yes it was, indeed!

No i didnt get to go brasil but YES i did have a great VIP experience in Singapore's first night race, partied like a rockstar and made many new pretty girlfriends. :))

It was interesting and i'll be back with photographs! Meanwhile i need to recuperate from the the walking around all day in heels, dancing all night in heels, heavy makeup, late nights, lack of sleep, massive drinking and smiling alot for the cameras.
What's most pertinent is to get work done seriously plus doing well for the many important tests & what-nots.

Oh man. I need to get by this 2 weeks smoothly.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:56

Insensitivity.

Shouldn't I deserve a "sorry" from you?
It doesn't matter that you need time to think things over, it matters that you didn't even bother to make sure i was alright. I'm so upset! :((

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:16

I'm just the other person.

I was hungry and thirsty but i couldn't go out.
I was in ill-fitting fugly clothes.
I was walking on shoes too big for me.
I had to wear all these and walk a big round before i could get out.
I had to find a neighbour to borrow charger so that i could call to get a lift home.
I was holding on to the promise you made.
I was waiting.
I was wrong.
I was pissed but then disappointment came and finally the pain settled in. I had a lot "whys" in me but shouldn't you be the one who's apologetic? I wished i had an explanation. Maybe, someday. But will it be out of apologetic feelings or because you need to get your stuff back?

I wished i were a computer and make that a mac. Then i could drag and drop everything i want from my memory without leaving any little bits of remnants. Or is it that i want to belong to?

I should be excited but now i just feel f-up.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
22:03

Dark Chocolates.

Here's a photo from our dinner and dance. We had spice girls, avril lavigne, brokeback boys and of course marilyn monroe. Was fun dressing up but i guess if more of the A girls were around, it would have been much more fun! :)) Last yr last chance anyway.

Over the years, besides missing the yr3 DND because i just got back frm x/c and knew noone enough to wanna go dnd, I went for the bashes and the event.

The beautiful ladies I was with for pageant. Look at how skinny i was in year 1!

Then THOC's gore glory table. Vampish.

And with the A girls in yr 3 for bash. :) I love dark chocolates. Like them, memories are always bittersweet.

I wished someone would tell me...

Love of mine some day you will die,
But I'll be close behind.
I'll follow you into the dark.
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white;
Just our hands clasped so tight,
Waiting for the hint of a spark.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule,
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black,
And I held my tongue as she told me,
"Son, fear is the heart of love."
So I never went back.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

You and me have seen everything to see;
From Bangkok to Calgary.
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down;
The time for sleep is now.
It's nothing to cry about,
'Cause we'll hold each other soon.
In the blackest of rooms.

If heaven and hell decide,
That they both are satisfied,
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs:
If there's no one beside you,
When your soul embarks;
Then I'll follow you into the dark.
Then I'll follow you into the dark.

But i'll follow you into the dark. Bittersweetedly.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
21:43

Monthly Hues of Blues

Woke up to a duller shade of blue and the sun didn't seem to shine as radiently as always. I can't even recall if the usually sparrows and little birds were chirping outside my windows.
Nowadays i've this nasty habit of peering over my shoulders, out the window with a ain't cool feeling 'cause i'm still feeling like the fool. Blah. I'm so silly and naive. Shudda just v that night. I'm still wistful, waiting to start anew and keep the ball rolling. Who knows? Might just roll right into the goal or perhaps eventually I'd quit the game just 'cause it's lame but friends will always remain as friends, ain't it true? Perhaps that's why i like Lily Allen's Smile, especially the line about the girl next door. Hrm.

Visual memories from last week.

My neighbour at convo dinner. Temasek is Home.

You asked why I sleep facing the windows rather than the door. Well, that's my view during lazy afternoons/evenings. What pretty skies compared to a door view. Afterall, it's my other side of the world.

Brother was nice to bring lulu for a dog run. She's so cuddly and petite, sitting on the mat. She's too frisky to be sitting on me lap.

Wild Rockets. The nice place i mentioned.

Gobbling food down with adel and church friends, all of us were stained with perspiration from the nike human race. Yikes.

Desserts at Waraku.

So sleepy. With slightly less than 5 hours of sleep and a day of experiments plus trainings, I'm so tired already at 10.19am.

Thinking of doing "the way i am" (by ingrid michaelson NOT timbaland) and "smile" or "the other side of the world" or "yellow" for chillout. Whaddya think? Would have wanted imogen heap but my range ain't good enough. Come come listen, get drunk and most importantly clap & scream no matter how bad i was. Ha!

10 days to recess week.

15 days to F1.

Exciting news. :)))))

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
09:19

Peace amidst Chaos

He, he's the one i'm thinking of tonight
But on his mind is another she
Well she's not me, but does he care?

Oh he, he's the one who's broken
But on her mind is another he
Well he's not him, but does it matter?

So does he know she told him
Will he even think about her?
So does he know she left him
Will he ever heal from her?

Say, say, do, do
What's said is said
What's done is done
I wished you weren't so cruel
Let her have him
Let him learn
Let them be blessed
With love and forgiveness.

I'm actually excited and wondering what to wear. Wished the schedule would be out quickly! I wished i had the Sony camera. Should i?

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
22:42

Damn. I need more clothes, shoes and bags.

WAH damn excited can? I feel like i don't know how to socialise with big shots. I don't even have a good camera now. :( Not to mention the dot, the tummy and the shabby clothes. Blah.
I feel broke but superbly excited.
All the dinners, parties, adrenaline pumping activities. Yup, that so me!
C'mon let the good times roll! :))

I'm thankful to You for the many good things in my life now that i'm learning more about myself. I need all the guidance and help i can receive. :))

The fire fades away
Most of every day
Is full of tired excuses
But it's too hard to say
I wish it were simple
But we give up easily
You're close enough to see that
You're the other side of the world to me

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
16:40

Temptation

Fiddled with designs. It is crude but it's my fruit. I named this Temptation.

And so he seeks
another pebble across the waters
what lurks beneath the murky grey
One can only wonder and pray.

The bold and bright
The red and green
He's attracted to gleeful sin
But is he really wrong to begin?

Slowly he treads
Passion with each step
Will he pass the murky grey
I can only hope and pray.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
23:30

Ingrid Michaelson

My new love.

Have you ever thought about what protects our hearts?
Just a cage of rib bones and other various parts.
So it's fairly simple to cut right through the mess,
And to stop the muscle that makes us confess.

And we are so fragile,
And our cracking bones make noise,
And we are just,
Breakable, breakable, breakable girls and boys.

But all that I know is I'm breathing

All I can do is keep breathing

All we can do is keep breathing

I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb

I want to shut out all the lights in this room

I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink

Scrub away all these thoughts that i think of you

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil

Feel like i watch from 6 feet under the soil

Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears

But i re count the countless tears that i lost for you

But before you finally go there's one thing you should know: That I promise -

Starting now I'll never know your name

Starting now I'll never feel the same

Starting now I wish you never came into my world.

If you were falling,

then I would catch you.

You need a light,

I'd find a match.

Cuz I love the way you say good morning.

And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly,

here take my sweater.

Your head is aching,

I'll make it better.

Cuz I love the way you call me baby.

And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.

Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.

And you take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am.

The different shades of blue in a bright red <3.

Breakable by Ingrid Michaelson.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
14:56

Weekend Delight

If i had to sum up what this weekend was with one word, it would be "FOOD".

Friday, 7pm @ Wild Rockets
As in previous post, had beef and seabass carpaccio and spicy crab pasta and squid ink risotto and ended with warm chocolate cake. Great great food.

Saturday, 11pm @ Brewerks
We shared everything. I'm not sure if you know how big their burgers were but we had 2 of them and one of them was King Brew so there were 2 patties. In addition we had 2 big bowls of soba salad. Never knew soba salad could taste good. It was yummy! Didn't really like the meat's' in the salad, preferred it if there were sashimi in it. HAHA! To top it all up, we had a gigantic plate of nachos with cheese, salsa and guacamole! It was better than Cafe Iguana's. But i prefer iguana's food. :) Okay 4 ladies having big portions of everything at 11pm isn't the healthiest thing to do but it was satisfying which explains why all of us felt so sleepy after that.

Sunday, 7.30pm @ Sushi Tei
We were so hungry after the run, we just ordered at our whim and fancy. All of us had udon. Adel and i ordered the bigger udon which was served on hotpot. Then there were phoneix roll, softshell crab, salmon sashimi salad, baked salmon maki, gyuniku mushroom, more sashimi and more sushi off the counter because we couldnt wait for our food. I felt bloated but not as sleepy as the night before. I think the adrenaline from the run overwhelmed the effects of serotonin on me.

Despite a very painful ankle and everyone losing each other halfway, i felt happy because i ran with good company for my first 10km run and not to mention the amount of happy hormones induced by a very long run. The run to happiness! :)) Somehow i still dread the aches i might potentially suffer from tomorrow and the trainings i've to attend this week.

Shall post once the photos reach me.

Thank you for the good times. :))

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
01:16

Kisses Given

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