What i really want.
is my own enterprise.
It doesn't matter if your daddy is rich and you got wealthier but it matters when you started out with nothing and became someone with something.
Gotta learn how to save and to learn how to work the dough before i plant my seeds and milk the cow.
I can't understand what guys just don't feel like they need to own 92827165353441 pieces of clothing and have 21938927387289687364 bags to match and 19729286372657 pairs of shoes to go with the bags and finally 287363876736763 pieces of jewellary to match everything else. I need to be wired like a guy!!! Maybe then, i can have like 89.999% chance of becoming rich because "the owners of most fashion labels, which women love to own, are men".
It's an aspriation. We can have them, can't we? Well we can also be lucky and find a lovely man who's able to jumpstart this dream.
Have a little faith, have a little hope. :))
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
22:56
Recovered.
i always love listening to people telling me about their insights or problems with llluurrrvvveee. it reassures me that i am not the only one and by sharing, we gain more and understand more about the delicate situation we're sometimes stuck in.
I hope we all learn a little something from tonight and yes, that includes you too!
This morning i tried to paint in the style of mucha but it was quite horrible. He's a czech art nouveau painter. I bought quite a few of his prints in prague as shown below. :) I juts love the way he paints women. So beautiful. Absolutely gorgeous. Pictures courtesy of art.com and you can buy from this site if you want to. I would if i could afford and hang them in my big house.
I've so many little errands to run, just thinking about them makes me jaded.
1. close UOB a/c
2. buy a new swatch with my spoilt swatch from zurich
3. go to On peddar on advice for their lousy Chloe bag! (okay i have to tell this story below!)
4. visit the dentist!
5. visit doctor wee in tp
6. read for thesis!
About point 3. Okay i've this Chloe mustard canvas carrier with leather handles secured with steel buckles. And at a whooping 1000buckaroos (bought at discount for ard 700bucks), i would expect a STAINLESS STEEL buckle but NOOOOOOO, it was rusty! Got it in dec 06 and when my mum sent it over to uk in early feb, the buckles were rusty and the WORST thing was that the rust dirtied my canvas bag! So now the mustard canvas has tiny orange specks. I don't know how to remove them! DAMNIT. And i lived with it because i was too busy to do anything about but now that i am so freeeee, i am gonna go ask for some help! Can u believe it? Rusty steel and not STAINLESS steel on a CHLOE bag. Gosh, what were they thinking?! So angry. So girls/boys, next time you buy an semi-expensive bag please ask for stainless steel. :S
Okay, bed time. Toodles. xoxo
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:56
Wickerpark.
I am single & available. Unfortunately, I'm not sought after. Well, having many suitors may be very flattering to the ego but it isn't really something to boast about because it really isn't a very pleasant task to dismiss nice boys who committed no crime just because they fancied you and constantly spoil you with attention and gifts and love. And usually, you would only be utterly disappointed that their friendship exists only because they're chasing your skirt.
Personally, i hate dating. I'd rather God sent someone to love me and told me reciprocate. He doesn't have to be flawless but i trust Him so I'm sure we should be at least compatible.
Sometimes i felt that He did send someone to love me (think Robbie Williams now) but I trampled over His delicate gift of love to me.
Sometimes i felt He was letting me experience the tougher times so that when a right one comes along, everything would be clearer because the times just seem sweeter.
Sometimes i feel like i'm already going through a basketful of clearance goods and sometimes i feel like the products on sale.
Sometimes i feel like i'm not meant to commit because i'm quite a 3-minute girl yet sometimes i just want to be a simple woman who wifes, mothers and houses.
Did i make a wrong decision? Did we make the wrong moves? Could i go back to the start? Could we return to where we began?
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' up Tails
Heads on a science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.
I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' up Tails
Comin' back as we are
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.
If only it was this simple.
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
01:02
Bali
At first i was apprehensive but it turned out to be quite an enjoyable holiday despite the many 'interesting moments'.
Despite bali being the beach holiday destination, we didn't hang out at the beach very much. However, I must stress that the Balinese beach was absolutely gorgeous and glorious. If i had another holiday there with my loved one(s), I would want to laze around my hotel and hangout at the beach and spa the whole day.
That was Nikko hotel. This was Oasis hotel which was so cheap. It's like 50bucks for 2 person a day. Lovely place.
We had an italian meal with nat's Japanese friend who was a wedding planner. How cool is that? Think J Lo. Haha. The fantastic thing was that the meal probably costs less than 25? I can't remember. Oops. But it was cheap. For the same restaurant in singapore, it'd be 4-5times the price.
I love this ubud puppy. So so cute.
Padi fields are common sights and i just love how the radiant sunlight reflects onto the water and adds sparkle against the blue & green canvas.
Okay so the holiday was full of temples, monkeys, good food, club, beach, temples, monkeys, good food, club, temples, beach, good food and spa. Spa was at a hilarious price. Massage+scrub+bath+hair treatment+facial = less than 50bucks. But i must say the massage wasn't as good as in sg or thailand. Maybe I should have invested in a more authentic or professional massage palour. On the other hand for such ridiculous low price, I can't complain too much i guess. :)) Besides, the people are really really friendly. Not to mention we have nat who's been a great translator and helping us get the best prices for everything. We all hate Route66! For all the 3 nights we tried clubbing, 66 was horribly empty and clubs were not fun. Dejavu was not fun but better than 66. Mental note: Only club on fridays and saturdays in Bali!
You know how people want to go Europe, America or other faraway places for honeymoon, well now I think that having an extravagant holiday in Bali is good enough for me. Muahahahha! It's really a conducive place for couples ya know? HAHA. Or maybe i should go hawaii before i make a decision.
I got terribly sick on Saturday after i came back on Thursday wee hours. Fever, nausea and slight diarrhoea. Mum thinks it's the mozzies until she recalled that i had a weird combination of crab at 9pm and yam/coconut icecream at 1am. :S Feeling much better now. :))
To end off, this is my new fave coldplay song. :) Enjoy.and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
22:21
Failed. Twice.
Maybe I'm not good enough for the world.
But i know i'm good enough for u. Thanks. :) xoxo
Off to Bali. Wish me safe and sound because i'll travelling alone till i meet the girls in the hotel.
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
12:39
of thoughts and dreams
When you were young, you were given the right to dream big. The right to announce proudly that you want to be the hottest supermodel, the world's richest man, to win a gold medal at the world olympics, to be the greatest inventor, the wonderful life saver or even be the next President. Noone could discourage you nor debunk your alleged achievements of the future because it is your future and noone knows anything for sure, not even now. Unfortunately, as we grow older, our right to dream big is demoralised by society and even by friends or family members. We feel limited by our circumstances. Those who succeed are those who break out of these chains, those driven by their own will and not succumb to societal forces. I feel weak. As i grow older, i realised how limited i am, how unmotivated i can be and despite feeling upset with such negativitiy and procrastination, I strive hard enough just to live a little better each day and just trying to keep myself happy with every act that i choose to commit everyday. Sometimes, it gets tough and you feel like you want to lead is an ordinary life like everybody else but what is ordinary? On the other hand, i know i want much more out of this life and all i need is a little patience and a little hope to persevere, to continue this journey just so i can find out what happens at the end of my story, the story of my life.Sometimes you feel that being single and alone renders you the greatest feeling alive but those who have someone who's always there to share their sadness and happiness would know that having someone around is always half the grief and twice the joy.
:)
i wanna be so many things, what about you?
- shrink in states
- english language teacher in taiwan/hongkong
- own my own cafe cum boutique & sell my own designs
- party planner
- spokesperson/model (of any sort eg. political, commerical, etc.)
- travel host
- start my own school for young children & employ senior citizens as educators
- wife who is being loved & cared for by her kids and hubby & pays them back with her love
My hairstylist just quit his job & is starting a new phase of his life. I hope i have the courage to start anew. Anyway if anyone needs a good haircut, go to holland v's toni & guys. Ask for jack, he's really dedicated and good with cutting. Affordable and good services! :D He's been so nice to me, I feel obliged to advert for him. HAHA.
Do you sometimes feel the urge to read the blogs of others you've know so long ago just to get a sense of involvement and security? I do. I find it comforting to know how people around you are doing despite the distance. So yah, i still read your blogs & i hope all of you are doing as fine as i am or better. :D
Meanwhile, i can't wait to watch Hulk because i love... Liv. Portman is 2nd, Taylor is definitely my favorite!
Gonna make dinner for 6 tomorrow. o0o0o0o... :)
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
02:12
Please save my stuff.
Heya babe, i've these extra wares leftover from my flea sale & i'm selling them here. Most brought over from europe if not then thailand/handmade. Do tag me if you are interested to adopt them. :)
Necklaces! Emerald Dew. (available in Rose colour too)
Necklaces length: around 44cm (with 6cm extra length depending on where you clasped it on)
I can shorten it for you if it's too long.
Butterflies Adore
Handmade with swavorski crystals. Sweet and sparkling.
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
14:20
Warm & Cosy
Never knew bbq could be so fun and easy. :))
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
21:59
Movies Fetish
I have been watching truckloads of movie. Average of 1.5 per day. I wanted to write an entry based on my thoughts which came in abundance when i watched Jane Austen Book Club. Unfortunately, they've fled my wandering mind since i watched it at 2am and after the first line on blogger, i decidedly went to bed at 4.25am.
Yes, after clubbing fri, sat, wed, I'm staying up late and watching dvds simply because i cannot sleep. Pathetic some may think but i love watching movies. Imagining myself to be characters in the movies, becoming someone i could never become, feeling emotions i might never feel in this short life of mine. There're just so many kinds of people you could be and you only have one life. 70,80 or 90 years just isn't long enough. Even if your mental age could take you far, your mere human physique just wouldn't bring you to all the places you've ever dreamt of. The King's secret lover in 1600s, the Baronet's materialistic wife in 1800s, the farmer's plain hardworking wife in 1900s, a supermodel, a singer, a writer, a politician, a plain jane, a bastard jockey, a ordinary person who has their life on big screen and that's the story for most of the small time movies i've watched.
If your life had to be on the big screens, which story would you choose?
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
16:48
Nice Taiwanese People.
The Singaporean Crew.
Taiwanese babes i met because we couldn't find Club Lava. They were so nice, they asked me to dance with them because i was with a group of guys.
Hongkongers whom we met on the dance floor. It's funny but we met a lot of hongkongers rather than having taiwaneses chatting up with us.
The SG force at the end of the night at 4am.
Here's our host in Kaoshiung, huicheng. We went for lapdance performances together and it was memorable man. Not to mention traumatic too because there were male dancers too. Ew. In case you were wondering, nope I didn't engage his services. A russian babe did lap dance on me and hc though. Woohoo. Interesting experience. :S
Results were out. I'm borderline. I'm just glad it was just close to yr 1 sem 2 and not there yet. Try harder next year. More study, Less party. I hope i have the determination and concentration. The toughest thing to do is not to go out less often but to be able to sit down and concentrate for 2 hours on your work. That's the crucial part.
I'm really broke but I like my new wallet. Woohoo! But I've gotten unfavourable remarks from my family members. Does it really look like cheap Carlo Rino? :( Anyhow, thanks to brother for the awesome present. :))
and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
20:46
Smiles
& friendly facesIndulging in reverie
People watching
A good book
Escapades
Eating good food
Volleyball
Dolling up
My loved ones
lizards
frumpy people
liars
betrayals
xiuzhen
wingyee
key
jules
peapodcast
jasmine
danielle
alvin
shiping
melissa ng
thesartorialist
jacko bro
vincent
adeline
peline tan
ali
kenneth jnr
lindaaaa
stephanie lim
zhiyang
jolene
huixiang
sue ann hottie
evelyn sweets
kimmie
daniel twinnie
wanwen
amy
jabriel :)
kenny
peiling
seokhui
yingzhi
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