Just because.

Awfully sweet, you. :)

I ask why.

Don't know why.

Did i put myself down.

Compromising my standards.

Oh dear, please.

I'm stuck.

The choice is clear.

I am blind.

I ask why.

Don't know why.

All i wanted.

feel the breeze when you speak

be alive when you breathe

bask in joy when you hold

shed a tear when you go

smile so wide when you text

tingle with excitement when you kiss

radiate with happiness when you call

lost in time when you fall

and love the moment when we're together

can you be a little nicer?

All i want is to win tonight. xoxo

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
14:18

Why i like Chinese New Year?

Unfortunately the focus was on the cake and not on me. :S

Happy Birthday to Me & Yiwen! :D

What i didn't like about CNY was you.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
15:31

1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you

It's a sweet video. Feels personal. :)) Enjoy.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
20:14

Sometimes all you need is someone.

Take me away
by Lifehouse.


This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
I've seen enough
And it's never enough
It keeps me leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
19:53

Happy Chinese New Year

Time

I think time is the most precious gift anyone can give. Most people are too busy in their lives chasing after many wants and desires to offer some time for those whom they love the most and need in their lives. Spend a little more time with your loved ones today.

Last night, I drew a piece of bible verse. For birthday, for new year, i think it's a great advice for me.
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess for God who promised is faithful.

Although many of us become increasingly jaded as they grow older, I'm still holding on to my hopes and dreams. Let Him be faithful and I will be hopeful.

Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! :))

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
23:31

Passed my basic theory test.

There's only 1 way 2 say 3 words 4 you...

I U

Supper@white rabbit

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
00:03

It's the new kinda way.

I'm bored. It's not like i've nothing to do. It's the kinda boredom that eats you up inside because you have so much stuff to complete and attend, you're bored of meeting them. It's too tiring and stressful. I'm bored.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
18:01

What i want.

I've gotten my new year stuff except for the shoes. Can't decide on heels or flats.

For Birthday I'd love to have...

1) My family celebrating my day with a cake for me.
2) Great Happiness & Health for my loved ones and I.
3) Many big AngBaos! :)

My Materialistic Lust List.
1) Ferragamo Varina Flats. So many colours. They look so chic and i've read that they are comfy! :)) I want the black, white and maroon. Yum! I really want them!

2) Nice leather structured workbag. Good for in and out of office.

Of course i would love to have another nice party bag. Classic or 2.55 are both lovely.

My SQ tickets are booked. First flight on A380. I'm going Europe and these dreadful "wants" of mine are 20% cheaper there than here. I've not even exclude the taxes. Argh! Consumption! We're so consumed by consumerism.
On the other hand, I must go visit the folks at IMH during CNY. :))

Ok. Now to bed. I should be doing more work. Argh.

Toodles baby!

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
01:17

Learning.

Loyalty. Courage. Devotion. Simplicity. Joy.

A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbols mean nothing to him. A water logged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their colour or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophiscated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not.

Marley & Me - p.280.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
13:55

My first...

IHG goal. :))

Next up, the Finals.

Blessed is the soul of the sincere.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
02:07

and so it is.

I've decided, I'm not going America. I'm going back to Europe! :)) Exciting!

Happy Birthday Amy!

We'll never be older, we'll only be wiser!

With love! xoxo :)

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:10

Because i'm bored and out of sorts.

I just made a discovery! It's so scary where plastic surgery brings you! If you do a little nip and tuck and keep a low profile, i'm sure you'll get away with it. I've just realised she joined many stuff already. Ha! I wish i could do some nip and tuck and be able to live with it. Unfortunately, i don't think i can live with that new "me". Kudos to the girls who'd do anything for beauty.
Let there never be a day I would go under the knife please.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
16:11

Nothing

It's a new header with an old concept. The other time it was a forest trail in the Scottish highlands. This is a very cool greenhouse cafe in Stockholm. The weather was mighty great. Feels like i'm walking around in a giant air-conditioned wonderland of blonde haired and blue eyed people. I can't express how much i loved being on exchange. It was an experience noone can understand nor explain until they have gone on a trip on their own.
In a short paragraph, i've brought up 2 interesting topics. How old concepts can still work wonders and how we all need to go through to get through.
I like the latter topic.

I always find it interesting to hear people saying "learn from others", "learn from the past". While some things are best learnt by avoiding, others are best learnt through personal experience. Sometimes, it doesn't matter what mum or dad says, you just have to go ahead, jump and fall, roll and tumble, get hurt and disappointed but you know you just had to go through to get through.

Go through to get through. Cool.
:))
I'm counting the steps i take in case everything becomes a mundane chain of vicious cycles and boring routines.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
19:55

Rainbow's here!

Being pent up is nasty. My mood was nasty. Now I am feeling better. So much better than I am not that bent on taking SE1101E anymore and wouldn't mind taking SN1101E. I would really love to learn abt our neighbours but since the SEA department has a ridiculous rule against Yr4 students from taking their module without informing us & since i have already made my point by emailing the dean and vice-dean twice, I shall take SN1101E and learn about India, Sri Lanka etc, and prove that i can ace in it as well. Well I'm glad Maldives is included because that's one of my honeymoon destinations before it sinks and disappears. :) Jitters about the computing module because there're mixed reviews. Cognitive Neuroscience isn't just scones and jam kinda module either. With the amount of procrastination i have on starting my thesis, I seem to foresee some trouble but I will muster some determination to start on the write-up this weekend. Although all i need are Bs, there's still no time to lose because i have a secret goal before i graduate. Secretly i wish and hope and pray it would come true. Shall reveal at the end of my final semester if i remember. ;)

Tomorrow is the first IHG match. I will focus, be fast and aggressive in defending as well as be strong and accurate in shooting. Channel all that strength, anger and energy into game play. Keep me close in your blessings.

Okay i'm still stuck home with my mac and it takes extremely long to load photos so i am going to randomly pick photos to put on this blog. I'll update on the backlogs once i'm in hall. Meanwhile, happy holidays!

Personal waitress & chef to cook the breakfast of your choice for you in your villa. I love their breakfast! Yum!

Beautiful sunset by the Legian Beach i think.

Just outside our room in our private villa is our personal swimming pool. It can be so hot shopping around so it feels absolutely wonderful to take off your clothes and enjoy a dip or a swim when you return back to your cozy villa.

It was a lazy brunch at Riders' Cafe. A day before he left. Very yummy too! And we sat by the balcony where the sun was shining, the breeze was blowing and the horses were having their leisurely runs. Of course there were the occasional waft of interesting smell from the horses' sheds that makes u go "Hrmm..."

In case you'd wanna visit this place. I love the pancakes (i'm not a fan of pancakes but this impresses me) and norwegian breakfast.

LuLu on one of the days we brought her out for a run and to meet the other dogs. :)) I really love LuLu. She's incredibly passionate & adorable!

Oh yes! Lovely Sunflowers right after my last paper. Totally perks me up! I guess i was hungry after a 7pm paper.

More to come. Time to sleep. For there are people who are living their lives in great fear, stress and sadness, we should give thanks for our health and peace. God bless us all. :)) xoxo

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
00:16

Close my eyes and i count to ten.

Everything will be wonderful again.
I've come up with a brilliant tag for my "now" feeling.
I feel like the fart caught in my butt.

Be forewarned of an extensive amount of rambling. School's starting and soon i will be able to upload photos with my fujitsu and you can come "read". Meanwhile, i'll let my verbal diarrhoea take place.

~*~*~*~

Nothing has been right since new year's eve. I shudda just left the house and gone out partyin'. Unfortunately, I've been feeling so empty lately. All that routine of meeting new people and wearing that smile on my face makes me feel so jaded. I yearn to have friends meeting up with me, talk to me and let me forget about the pretentious little hypocrites around me.
Gosh, I have this pent up feeling in me that is suffocating me from inside. The twisting of stomach and strangling of throat, they just leave me so breathless and angry. I need to release my anger tomorrow. Somehow convert that inner angry strength into massive pure power of excellent game play. Kinda like the mellow but still threatening version of Mr. Hulk. ;)

It's an icky feeling stuck at the back of your throat. You can't cough it out, you can't swallow it down. You just have to wait it out. Let it turn into a smelly burp or expel out as the smell'ier' fart. DAMN u little weird strange volume of unknown gas. :s

Little Nonya ended with the granny saying something which i couldn't really catch it but would really want to know what she said. Somehow i have the impression she said something about making choices. It can be difficult to make choices sometimes. So just choose the one you think is most suitable in the circumstances that you're caught in.

I'm angry at will smith in seven pounds. His intentions of saving 7 people thus sacrificing himself started out with the intention to ease some of his guilt and that life had become meaningful and guilt'ful' for him since his fiance was dead and in his folly, he killed 7. Subsequently, it seemed to me that his final motivation to sacrifice himself was no longer just because of guilt for the deaths and even less so due to the love for his wife. Most importantly, his death was for his new found love for the girl, Sarah, whom he gave his heart (metaphorically and literally) to. He made me mad because it makes me think of men as being forgetful creatures capable of forgetting their loved ones and loving another.

Too short a period of time, i cannot calm now. Too long and i'll be gone. It's better if something is to be done quickly. It had better be something that would leave me happily soaked in the bright sunshine and to really help gain most credentials back. Even banks these days have tighten their criteria on loan applicants. Why shouldn't I?

It feels like the awkward period of growing up. Clothes are either too childish for you or too mature for you. DAMN. Can someone just do something to get me out?
God, please send your angels and blessings to us all. There's always life if there's still hope. :)) xoxo

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
23:10

the cookie in the jar.

it was a little chip off the old block
but then the cookie crumbled
i trembled with sadness and i was mocked
i thought you gave me chocochip & nuts
but then came the worms and slugs
barely after a year or so.

maybe you think i could brush them away
take a bite off but definitely nay
if it had broken into bits
it would still be the old hit
but now it's just a rotten vas
noone would accept, no, none of us.

it almost feels like the end
there were no other plans
it wasn't easy even with zits and farts,
i still really liked chocochip & nuts
but now we know the only way
is till the next batch of baking is baked.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
16:48

What 2009 brings?

Happy New Year Everyone!

To be honest, the start to my new year wasn't happy at all. Issues from all round made it miserable. In addition, I've always been superstitious and this year is my "fan tai sui" or 犯太岁 year. Well, such a concept could have been a way of reminding people to do more good and be more caution because everyone needs a gentle push towards the right path once in awhile. :)

What i wish to achieve in 2009?
1. To spend less and to spend wisely & perhaps grow cash on trees.
2. Strive for the best! Be diligent and stop under-achieveing!
3. To be wiser, to tolerate & to be patient.

If i had to choose between a memorable, exciting year and a peaceful, smooth sailing year, I would definitely choose the latter.
Hoping is just the process to enjoy, to get what you had hoped is the goal. :))

Cheers! xoxo

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
02:10

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