i love the old ways.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
11:21

Fear of loss.

Most of the time, i have very high hopes for myself, from others and of everything i've around me. Over my growing years, i've learnt to accept all the failures and savor in every little victories. Sometimes i grow so jaded of anticipations and expectations, i find myself unmotivated.

The one thing i've never learnt to embrace is loss. The thought of losing something and/or someone has always been a terrible fear. I've never had pets nor any relatives close to me passing on. I've been blessed and I'm sincerely thankful. I know that with the arrival of Lulu, it is just a ticking time bomb before she would leave us.

Everyone is a ticking time bomb, you never know when you would just fall; A mysterious land mine, you never know what accident would bring you away; A killer gas, you never know when you would suffer from a long torturous series of illness that robs you of every waking moment.

Death. The ultimate destination for everyone.
Because i do not know when i would die, i do not fear death.
Because i do not know when my loved ones would die, i fear death.
Please don't take anyone away, not yet.
There're too many promises unfulfilled yet.
Please.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
20:44

Feel good pills.

Meeting up with my lovely girls on valentine's day and watching a hopeful movie, Slumdog millionaire.
Receiving flowers and gifts on valentine's day. :))
Meeting the volleyball girls for a wonderful long chat about life and its gossips.
Arranging a all girls' beach date.
Simply being at home, instead of being alone in hall.

The only down side? Not doing work. Blah.

I think i am starting to appreciate the life of monogamy. On a side note, i have and will never advocate polygamy. Argk!

Okay now, let's have hope in love and marriages. And of course, let's have faith and hope in the realisation of deadlines too. :)

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:03

My favorite game.

i hate to admit
but i am losing it again
my favorite game.

it's so tough to say
let's stop, pull the plugs and go
i've fallen again.

To all emo nemo buddies, happy valentine's day! :) xoxo

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
23:55

Dawn upon.

Beginning to understand what it is to be with someone who loves you rather than someone you love.
To protect oneself, one should learn to know that being with someone you can live with is of greater happiness than being with someone you cannot live with. And at this point, someone you cannot live without shouldn't even be in the equation because as time goes by, it will all be a habit and as we, men, tend to resist changes, we wouldn't be able to live without our partners. Having said all this, love should still be reciprocal. Of course the degree of affection is most subjective and relative.

I advocate mutual love, care and understanding. :)

I don't really know why but this reminded me of deathcab for cutie's i will follow you into the dark mtv. Love the rabbits.

Check out the mtv.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
22:21

4am.

Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday

Who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And it’s too late for you and your white horse

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry...no, no, no, no

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it’s 2am and I’m cursing your name
You’re so in love that you act insane
And that’s the way I loved you
Breakin’ down and coming undone
It’s a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that’s the way I loved you

He can’t see the smile I’m faking
And my heart’s not breaking
Cause I’m not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

When you know you're about to cry

And i know your favorite songs

And you tell me about your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me...

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along

So why can't you see

You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time

How could you not know

Baby you belong with me

You belong with me

So baby drive slow till we run out of road

In this one‐horse town, I wanna stay right here

In this passenger seat

You put your eyes on me

In this moment now

Capture it, remember it

And I don’t know how it gets better than this

You take my hand and drag me headfirst

Fearless

And I don’t know why but with you

I’d danceIn a storm in my best dress

Fearless

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Didn’t mean it baby
You said forever and always yeah

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you was fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town

And I said Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head, I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

I am gonna go get her album. Totally totally true.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
03:46

I'm on screen!

Check out what i found! Hahaha!! I'm sorry if i spoilt the songs.

Coldplay - Yellow

KT Tunstall - Other Side of the World

Last week was a tough week for me. I can see the weeks ahead getting real busy, hectic and emotional. God please give me strength and wisdom to overcome all these obstacles.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
00:16

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