Lost.

Everyone needs directions. Suddenly i felt that i've lost the reason to why i've a blog. It's the place where i retreat, reflect and remember. At least i got reminded of it today.

It's that time again. I've not had a nice quiet bus ride in a long time. No rush, no sweat, just going where i'm going and enjoying my world within the music through my ears. It made me think about past events that I shouldn't have let happened. It's so hard to let these matters go by and to find it within yourself to be magnanimous, to forgive and forget. Perhaps i'm just waiting for a proper explanation, an apology or some reason of some sort before these walls around these unpleasant memories would crumble and fall away.

Time doesn't heal all things, time simply bleaches them, folds them, hides them but traces would always remain to haunt you. I hate this icky feeling. I seek closure to everything that happens and i've to have it happen.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
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