Grey clouds over blue skies.

I wanted to talk about happy stuff like how i've gotten all the stuff on my wishlist except for a real good leather bag but i'm so perturbed by the lukewater kinda response i've gotten from a friend i considered close. I wished she was a little more empathetic.

You know I always thought friends should always be there to support you and you would do the same for them - supportive in terms of shit school, family issues, boys stuff and other personal news and problems. After growing up alittle more, I realised it ain't true. While friends will always be friends, you know not everyone goes the distance with you. And that lovey caring words are so easily thrown around, actions are what mattered most. The one who will always be there for you is, you. Family will be the safety net who catches you. Some friends to some degree will prevent your fall from being too much of an arse pain but ultimately, you'll feel the pain. Maybe i'm wishing too hard but i wished I had more of the friends who would fall with me and share their bruise lotion with me.

Must be the weather. I'm under it.

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
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