of thoughts and dreams

When you were young, you were given the right to dream big. The right to announce proudly that you want to be the hottest supermodel, the world's richest man, to win a gold medal at the world olympics, to be the greatest inventor, the wonderful life saver or even be the next President. Noone could discourage you nor debunk your alleged achievements of the future because it is your future and noone knows anything for sure, not even now. Unfortunately, as we grow older, our right to dream big is demoralised by society and even by friends or family members. We feel limited by our circumstances. Those who succeed are those who break out of these chains, those driven by their own will and not succumb to societal forces. I feel weak. As i grow older, i realised how limited i am, how unmotivated i can be and despite feeling upset with such negativitiy and procrastination, I strive hard enough just to live a little better each day and just trying to keep myself happy with every act that i choose to commit everyday. Sometimes, it gets tough and you feel like you want to lead is an ordinary life like everybody else but what is ordinary? On the other hand, i know i want much more out of this life and all i need is a little patience and a little hope to persevere, to continue this journey just so i can find out what happens at the end of my story, the story of my life.

Sometimes you feel that being single and alone renders you the greatest feeling alive but those who have someone who's always there to share their sadness and happiness would know that having someone around is always half the grief and twice the joy.
:)

i wanna be so many things, what about you?

1. shrink in states
2. english language teacher in taiwan/hongkong
3. own my own cafe cum boutique & sell my own designs
4. party planner
5. spokesperson/model (of any sort eg. political, commerical, etc.)
6. travel host
7. start my own school for young children & employ senior citizens as educators
8. wife who is being loved & cared for by her kids and hubby & pays them back with her love

My hairstylist just quit his job & is starting a new phase of his life. I hope i have the courage to start anew. Anyway if anyone needs a good haircut, go to holland v's toni & guys. Ask for jack, he's really dedicated and good with cutting. Affordable and good services! :D He's been so nice to me, I feel obliged to advert for him. HAHA.

Do you sometimes feel the urge to read the blogs of others you've know so long ago just to get a sense of involvement and security? I do. I find it comforting to know how people around you are doing despite the distance. So yah, i still read your blogs & i hope all of you are doing as fine as i am or better. :D

Meanwhile, i can't wait to watch Hulk because i love... Liv. Portman is 2nd, Taylor is definitely my favorite!

Gonna make dinner for 6 tomorrow. o0o0o0o... :)

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
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