deliriously busy week

It's funny how familiarity breeds contempt with the bits and pieces of nostalgia. I'm caught in the wheel again. I'm contemplating on the prospect of running away from all this local shores' drama. :)) I'm independent but i just choose to be dependent on the lucky few. HAHA! Aren't we all lazy? I'm too comfortable with who i'm with and so i'm sticking to you all the time. I guess i'm Haw in the "who moved my cheese" story. I'm hemming and hawing all the time. Drats. I should learn to be the mice. Run run run, chase chase chase, changes changes changes.

Like Faith Evans says "If i had to do it all again, i wouldn't take away the rain cause i know it made me who i am. If i had to do it all again, I learnt so much from my mistakes, that's how i know He's watching me..."

Well my tests were okay. *beams* Now for the presentation tomorrow and the other test on wednesday. Let's pray. :)

I love the song by blue october.

i’m just a normal boy that sank when i fell overboard
my ship would leave the country but i’d rather swim ashore
without a life-vest i’d be stuck again
wish i was much more masculine
maybe then i could learn to swim like
14 miles away
now floating up and down i spin colliding into sound
like whales beneath me diving down
i’m sinking to the bottom of my
everything that freaks me out
the lighthouse gleam has just run out
i’m cold as cold as cold... can be

I wanna swim away but don’t know how
sometimes it feels just like i’m falling in the ocean
let the waves up... take me down
let the hurricane set in motion
let the rain of what i feel right now come down
let the rain come down

where is the coast guard i keep looking each direction
for a spotlight give me something... i need something for protection
maybe flotsam junk would do just fine
the jetsam sunk i’m left behind
i’m treading for my life believe me how can i keep up this breathing
not knowing how to think... i scream aloud begin to sink
my legs and arms are broken down with envy for the solid ground
i’m reaching for the life within me
how can one man stop his ending...
well i thought of just your face
relaxed and floated into space

i wanna swim away but don’t know how
sometimes it feels just like i’m falling in the ocean
let the waves up... take me down
let the hurricane set in motion
let the rain of what i feel right now come down
let the rain come down
now waking to the sun i calculate what i had done
like jumping from the bow yea
just to prove that i knew how yea
it’s midnights late reminder of
the loss of her the one i love
my will to quickly end it all
sat front row in my need to fall into the ocean end it all
into the ocean end it all

Project and Plush was how i spent last week. Had Mel's sweet 21st party. Photos soon. Well, my favorite Ps are still Putri and Pang. ;)

and so she ponders, wishes & scribbles
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